i need to fly far away

+ I feel groggy and weird and grumpy. Could use a few more hours of sleep. I'd blame Daylight Savings, but that doesn't really account for the other few hours I could've been sleeping, does it? Thank god for Spring Break, at least -- no class tonight.

+ If when I get my Spring Fling fic finished today, I'm gifting myself with a new layout and header. I'm already completely sick of the yellow.

+ I might be overhauling my Big Bang ideas -- the Merlin one, at least. I'm having a bit of a crisis of confidence when it comes to plotting it out, particularly settling on one bunny and running with it. The HP one is fairly solid; it just needs to be fleshed out. I wish I were better at outlining.

(Speaking of the Hermione Big Bang, it's starting to feel kind-of overwhelming, the way it's been coming together. In a good way, but just ... wow.)

+ I am told that I should be watching Big Bang Theory. Apparently it's right up my alley, and the fact that I've never seen it is a gross oversight that I should rectify immediately. I'll get on that, and report the results. *g*

+ Dollhouse -- I watched the latest episode last night. I'm really getting into it and I'm glad I gave it another shot after the rather slow pilot (I thought). But it's so skeevy; I just want Echo and Sierra to get the hell out of there. And then hook up.

+ I think that's it. Hugs to everyone who needs them today. ♥

and scab and heal and bleed again

I would've made this an ETA to my previous post, but it really kind-of deserves its own, so I hope you don't mind the spam.

If you haven't been reading all the posts about/related to/in response to RaceFail '09, I think you should be. It's informative, exhausting, not a little painful, and worth the time I've spent reading through it. Here's an abbreviated round-up by rydra_wong, which also points to a much more extensive list of links that are also useful.

Anyway, I'm mostly posting to point to this post by bossymarmalade that I've finally got a chance to read. It was written in response to this entry by Elizabeth Bear. And while Bear martyrs herself quite nobly, I found bossymarmalade's response eloquent and perfect. It made me cry.

We actually can't all "just let it drop" for a while. It's beautiful that we're having this discussion -- sometimes I think about what my mother would say if she were reading all this. I actually tried to explain it to her this weekend, what's been going on, and she doesn't even understand why we try: it goes nowhere, ever, and it leads to pain. She and I are about two generations apart, though, and she's been through things I can't ever completely understand, so I can't tell her that her feelings are wrong. I could never, ever tell her that.

Besides, sometimes, I think she's right. Frustratingly so.

But then I read the above post, and I wish that I'd been more vocal.