i feel stupid, and contagious

blink and you'll miss a revolution

2011-12-21T15:56:51Z

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...hi?

Hi.

Okay:

+ So work and life and school have been busy enough that it's easier for me to microblog lately, over on Tumblr and Twitter. You can pretty much always find/follow me over there. I keep trying to make posts here but never feel like I have anything interesting to say, and I feel worse as time passes, and and and. I also don't really feel like I have a fandom anymore, and that feels really weird on LJ especially. But as always I miss you when I stay away. :/

+ In the next month or so, things'll probably get even tighter for me because I need to pick up a part-time job in addition to my full-time one. I have no idea what it's going to be, but I need to bring some extra money in because it's hard to focus on anything when I'm feeling so snowed under. Basically I might look into waitressing or something? I used to be pretty good at that. Or retail, I don't know. It's really hard to imagine anyone hiring me for something on the weekends when they could take on any number of high school or college kids instead. I guess I won't know until I try. It's been...a really long time since I've looked for part time work, I don't even know what it would pay. I'd prefer to move into a full-time job that pays better, but it's not in the cards right now because I owe my company a couple more years for paying for grad school.

I'm hoping I'll actually feel better, even if I have less time to myself. Money stress (most types of stress I guess) tends to make me want to watch TV under the covers forever and not do anything, not even read LJ properly, and it gets really depressing and unhealthy and I don't wanna talk about it ok moving on.

+ LJ's not making it any easier to be back around with this new comment page thing. They're a visual nightmare and a functional DISASTER. Between this and delicious and AO3, I can't even. And screw anyone with dialup I guess, because having no option other than to load all your icon images every time you want to leave a comment must be super-fun for them.

...if anyone is on Dreamwidth I am too, so add me if you wanna. They are offering free accounts for the next few days and I probably have a ton of invite codes by now as well.

+ The Hobbit trailer has brought my Tolkien feelings back. Well, that and an impending yearly LOTR extended version marathon coming up next month.

+ Uploaded a ton of music over on my tumblr (more links at the bottom of the post), my faves of 2011 if you wanna check it out. If I can finish knitting these Christmas presents, I will post the links over here in the next couple days, be easier.

+ Still knitting! I'm still having fun with it, and getting better and better even if I don't quite have the dough to enable my yarn addiction. Which is probably a good thing. Right now I'm working on a hat for my dad and a shawl for my mom that I hope I can finish by Christmas. Luckily I'm not going out of town so I'm free to work up to the last minute, like I do~

I also love to TALK about knitting, so.

+ The other thing I've decided I want to get into finally in the new year is makeup. Which I have never worn...ever. Kind of ridiculous seeing as I'm a grown-ass woman, but I just never really learned how? And I want to. So I've been grilling friends for tips and I'm pretty excited. Decided I'm going to try Bare Minerals for foundation and maybe get one of those Naked palletes for my eyes if I can swing it. I'm taking recs if you have favorite eyeliners and lip stuff and whatever else.

+ I'll stop here I think. Happy Hanukkah, and Merry Christmas if I don't post again before then! Come say hi if you wanna; I'm gonna go work on replying to messages and stuff.

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good is better than perfect

2011-10-06T15:12:23Z

How're you all? Livejournal is slow as I don't know what since the downtime. Meh.

+ I did watch Merlin, I will make a post I think, but after the second ep of the two-parter has aired. In the rare event anyone was wondering where my Merls posts have got to this year.

+ So yesterday I went on a mild rampage on tumblr about my dislike of the word "girlcrush" (similar to my dislike of the word "bromance" as a more socially acceptable way to say "no homo") and it was fairly satisfying in itself BUT THEN Jasika Nicole (Astrid on Fringe) messaged me to say that I am her fave person to read on tumblr and that she has a crush on my brain.

Which.

WHAT.

So I'm basically going to be starstruck for DAYS, not helped by Lex and 3M making portmanteaus out of our tumblr URLs. (the consensus appears to be 'squintyourbooty'). I can't even. The dream is collapsing.

+ I'm so mad at Netflix right now. I put a hold on my account so I wouldn't be billed for anything (in exchange for not being able to watch anything) until November, but yesterday I noticed that they yanked seventeen bucks out of my account anyway. I need to call them and get that money back and then cancel their asses altogether. I wouldn't even be so upset if it wasn't literally scraping the bottom of my bank account at the moment. (automatic debits are SCARY, ugh). But yeah, I was willing to stick with Netflix instant watch even after their recent shenanigans but this is too much. Why is instant watch so alluring, why.

+ What're people listening to lately? I haven't been good at finding new stuff the last few months.

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the city is my church

2011-09-16T13:34:36Z

Gonna do a quick friday five meme I spotted on dreamon_dreamer's journal!

lasts.

1. What was the last book you read, and what is your opinion of it?
A Feast for Crows by George R R Martin. It's probably my favorite of the series so far, tied with A Storm of Swords. My issue with the ASOIAF books is that it often takes me a ridiculously long time to get through chapters for characters that don't interest me as much or for whom Martin's prose is especially rambly, because for all that I love the characters, the actual reading experience is...kind of a chore for me. AFFC has the highest percentage of POV chapters that don't bore me, so it's kind of my favorite by default. Also HOUSE MARTELL FOREVER <3

Around the same time, or close enough that I'm not sure which was first, I finished volume 1 of the Fullmetal Alchemist manga. Delightful.

2. What was the last movie you saw, and what is your opinion of it?
Attack the Block. Legit one of my favorite movies of the year! Funny, charming, touching, really great performances, with some sharp social commentary that I wasn't expecting. Nice soundtrack, too. Definitely one of the best genre films I've seen in quite a while. Also I want the kid who played Moses to be in all the things; everyone was adorable though.

3. What was the last TV show you saw, and what is your opinion of it?
The last episode of anything that I watched was episode 4x10 of The Wire, "Misgivings". I've seen it twice already so it's part of my rewatch, but my opinion is the same as my opinion for all of season four, which is CRYING FOREVER.

In terms of current stuff, this week I watched the most recent episodes of Sons of Anarchy (not bad), True Blood (I've officially and permanently broken up with that show), and Lost Girl (delightfulll). Giving the new season of Vampire Diaries a miss for now. When Bonnie turns back up, I'll marathon what I missed. /iregretnothing.gif

4. What was the last album you bought / downloaded, and what is your opinion of it?
Soundtracks for Attack the Block. Definitely recommended if you've seen it. I also downloaded the new St Vincent album around the same time but I haven't listened to it yet. I'm not that well-versed in St Vincent's other stuff, I just love her face and I've heard good things about this album.

5. What was the last meal you cooked, and how did it turn out?
I actually cooked for the first time in a few weeks on Wednesday, but it wasn't anything special. It was just this chicken pasta salad thingy but it was really tasty and colorful and had veggies. Balanced meals, y'all. I'm such a fucking adult.

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TV stuff!

2011-09-08T19:09:35Z

Just to update y'all on what I'm watching right now and 'cos it's been a while since I made a tv post. XD

( Lost Girl 2x01 )

( Doctor Who 6x09 (not the squee you are looking for) )

( Breaking Bad 4x08 )

( Damages 4x08 )

( Sons of Anarchy 4x01 )

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all the toys and the tools in the box

2011-08-29T13:40:39Z

Hope everyone on the East Coast is safe and survived the storming! It wasn't bad where I am, we actually had a worse storm a couple weeks ago--or at least one that kept us out of power longer than Irene did. I think we were spared the worst because I was actually prepared this time. And by prepared I mean there were flashlights and booze. But I'm thankful it wasn't too serious here and I hope no one was hit too hard.

+ Watched Doctor Who this weekend and I...I don't understand the question and I won't respond to it. (But if you want to talk about it I will in the comments--I just don't have much good to say, might expand on that and/or link to some reviews I liked later).

+ I have a bluray rip of Thor and everything is fluffy and nothing hurts. There was this blog post by my homeboy Greg Rucka going around this weekend, about how gritty and dark and grey~ doesn't always mean smart or mature storytelling, tying into why recent DC comics movies underperform (with the obvious exception of BB/TDK) whilst Marvel comics movies keep kicking DC's ass.

Which is to say, Thor on bluray is everything good in this world.

+ The longer I go without a Pottermore email, the more I care about it. I wasn't prepared for this. I JUST WANT TO BE SORTED.

+ I was wondering if I could trouble you guys for Big Bang recs or links to reclists. Any Big Bang, I don't even care, but bonus points for ladies. *g* I'm in the mood to read some long fic. First on my list is the ones you guys have written, I've been bookmarking!

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oer

2011-08-23T18:30:03Z

WELL, nothing like a motherfucking earthquake to shake an LJ post out of me!

I hope everyone's okay!

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deathly hallows are deathly

2011-07-16T22:24:57Z

Saw DH pt 2, cried all over myself, have thoughts.

( i'll go with you )

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oooh

2011-07-07T16:17:07Z

The Boy Who Lived Forever

An article on fanfiction that isn't condescending and irritating! In TIME!

Fan fiction is what literature might look like if it were reinvented from scratch after a nuclear apocalypse by a band of brilliant pop-culture junkies trapped in a sealed bunker. They don’t do it for money. That’s not what it’s about. The writers write it and put it up online just for the satisfaction. They’re fans, but they’re not silent, couchbound consumers of media. The culture talks to them, and they talk back to the culture in its own language.

*chinhands*

*goes back to trying to watch a livestream of the DH premiere at work*

*shut up, it's the last one ever*

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eeeeee

2011-06-25T02:10:03Z

Same sex marriage will shortly be legal in the state of New York!

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tomorrow, mankind will know that ponies exist.

2011-06-24T16:30:52Z

I have watched this three times.

No regrets.

I haven't said anything about X-Men: First Class really -- I wasn't intending to see it but the friend I was with didn't want to see Super 8, so. As a longtime X-Men fan it was really exciting (seriously, Charles/Erik's one of my o.g. OTPs and selenak reviews some of the cool things about it). But it was also frustrating, enough for me not to want to recommend this movie, because it should've been the best film in the franchise but is easily the WORST when it comes to how the women and PoCs fared. Not to mention the erasure of Mystique's queerness, much as I enjoyed her arc.

Particularly disappointing for me because the X-Men franchise prides itself on being an allegory for oppressed groups in the real world, and I think that's part of what draws so many fans to it. Which is problematic enough, but to try to do that and then proceed to erase, exploit, and marginalize the actual minorities in the film ... gives me a headache. (here's a fantastic roundup of the things that bugged me most, and as always, rawles' commentary is the greatest.)

I'm also sick of love stories that don't get to be actual love stories--and if Charles and Erik aren't that, then I don't know what is. Beautifully rendered and acted but frustrating.

Also: McAvoy can make me like Charles even at his most arrogant and oblivious points in the film, so that was cool. Fassbender's face creeps me out generally (too. many. teeth.), but not as Magneto, so that was fine.

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knitting!

2011-06-23T15:27:01Z

Done got myself a Ravelry account (thanks to copracat for the link!), mostly so I can lurk the forums for tips and discussions.

Still familiarizing myself, but anyone else have an account? I'm heathershaped.

Kinnnnnda excited.

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mo' potter, mo' problems

2011-06-23T13:32:06Z

*chokes on thick layer of dust*

So ...AWOL again, I'm sorry. Been having some trouble keeping up with my f-list and I don't want to think about cutting it at this time so I've just been...not keeping up, WHICH IS BAD AND I FEEL BAD. I miss you guys.

Also hi! There is nothing particularly exciting going on with me, to the point I don't know what to post, really. let's see:

- Wrapping up a summer course for which I have a paper due next Thursday

- Learning how to knit -- I am pretty comfortable with at least three stitches if you count casting on, but I'm having trouble keeping them uniform and not-too-tight which makes me curse and unravel things in frustration, so if any of you guys knit, I would love some tips or links! I'm kind of excited about it, lol. I want to make things.

- Watching all the things, as per usual, which at the moment consists of Luther, Game of Thrones (through last Sunday at least), So You Think You Can Dance, and yet another rewatch of The Wire. Have also seen X-Men: First Class, Thor, and Bridesmaids.

- On the subject of Doctor Who, I don't understand the question and I won't respond to it.

- Slowly working through a massive summer reading list.

- I slept through the Pottermore announcement but I find I don't really care. I bet in October when it actually opens, I'll care.

- I see a bunch of y'all have joined Tumblr, so allow me to link to mine again. I generally post about pretty ladies, occasional dudes, whatever I'm watching, and a fair amount of media and social justice quotes, links, and dubiously-coherent rambles.

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you weren't perfect but you made life worth it

2011-05-13T14:17:46Z

+ not really feeling the new navigation bar on LJ. It looks all unfinished.

+ I watched The Vampire Diaries' finale, and this might not be the squee you are looking for. ( blah blah damon blah )

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i sit tight, don't wanna miss the show

2011-05-11T15:22:10Z

+ So Google's homepage is awesome today:

Martha Graham! And earlier this week it was Mr. Men. Four for you, Google.

+ Last night I read Thor: The Mighty Avenger and it is the best superhero comic in existence. I feel like I can say that because I have read every superhero comic in existence. But no, really, pick it up, it's sweet and adorable and Thor and Jane are my FAVORITES.

I've also acquired Morning Glories, which I found out about on tumblr and haven't read yet, but I'm wondering if it will fill the Runaways-shaped hole in my life.

+ But I really want to talk about The Good Wife.

( spoilers don't have to confide in anyone )

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excuse my charisma

2011-05-10T13:39:00Z

THINGIES IN MY EYEBALLS:

+ Saw Thor this weekend and I'm in love. I mean, there's stuff I could say about the storytelling and whatnot, but mostly I LOVE THOR. THOR IS A FLUFFY BUNNY. I have such a kink for cuddly superheros with storyarcs that are about being wise and kind and sweet, and also punching stuff. And who kiss Jane's fingers and make her giggly. Such superheros are rare and refreshing, as most superheros are emos and/or douches and/or emodouches. I want all the fic. Thor/Jane and Thor/Sif and Thor/Loki and Sif/Darcy (I DON'T KNOW, I JUST LOVED THEM BOTH). Anyway I've procured Thor: The Mighty Avenger to read because I am told it's all about fluffy!Thor.

Anyway yeah, fic. *grabbyhands*

+ Have been sucked back into Glee. Sort of. I still fast-forward a lot, but I'm so ridiculously invested in Brittany/Santana. I just want them to be okay. ;___;

+ I'm watching Doctor Who but I'm not quite as invested as I was last season. The things I am invested in are too confusing for me to puzzle out right now, but I enjoy the theories and I've been staying away from spoilers so that whatever twists are coming are totally new to me. My overwhelming feeling: everything is River and nothing hurts. Except for when things are pirates and I'm bored. Amy can keep the hat, though. *swoon*

+ The other stuff I'm watching is primarily Game of Thrones, Treme, The Vampire Diaries, and The Good Wife. I think this post would get too long if I talked about them all in detail, but suffice it to say:

--- Game of Thrones: STAAAAARKS. And also Jon/Sam giving Jon a much-needed personality injection. And also caring about Jamie and Cersei for the first time ever. And oh, the ranting that I want to do about Dany/Drogo and the Dothraki storyline.
--- The Vampire Diaries: My abusive relationship with this show continues. Still loving Elena and Stefan and Bonnie, still shipping Damon/Stake. and very sad that they have decided to make the finale completely free of narrative tension. (Unless there's anyone who believes the writers will ever let Damon go, I should say.)
--- The Good Wife: KALINDA. ALICIA. CRYING FOREVER.
--- Treme: Best show. LADONNA. ;__;

+ I also want to talk about Fringe, but idk if I have time to get into it. Could go for an Olivia-centric rewrite of the back half of this season though.

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heathershaped @ 2011-05-02T10:10:00

2011-05-02T14:23:21Z

WELL. BEEN A WHILE. Hi guys. I have other stuff I want to post about, but srs bsns first:

+ So OBL's dead, and it's super-surreal. I remember exactly where I was on 9/11, and it's hard to believe that it's been ten years with this spectre hanging over us. I'm glad he's dead for the symbolic value, for the fact that the world's legit a better place without him, for the shot in the arm this gives to our troops, and for the closure it's brought those who need it. All that's real and important and I'm grateful no Americans were harmed while taking him out even as I'm sorry that Pakistani civilians weren't so lucky.

That said, the surge of nationalism (mostly the accompanying anti-Islamic sentiment) scares me. The gross jokes on Facebook/Twitter/Tumblr last night. The assumptions that the Islamic community isn't as happy about this as we are. The belated (extremely belated) undercurrents of fear of retaliation that we should've thought about, oh, nine years ago or at any point since. Now is NOT the time to start sowing fear about that. I also can't with the throngs of people celebrating outside the white house either. I get it, but it seems like very much the wrong tone to take with the world watching, and celebrating death makes me feel skeevy, particularly considering the tens of thousands of deaths over the last decade that reportedly sprung from the search for this one dude. Hard to call that victory. It's just sobering, and at the end of the day nothing's changed in the region; what we change with regards to our Afghanistan policy remains to be seen.

On a lighter note but not that much lighter, Donald Trump can go shave his back now. Guess now we know why it took Obama so long to get around to releasing that long-form birth certificate, hm?

+ Good luck to everyone in Canada today with your elections.

+ thoughts on TV and a music post later/tomorrow.

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Bang.

2011-03-14T19:25:33Z

So, Being Human 3x08, "The Wolf-shaped Bullet", has basically induced a feelings attack and caused my opinion on this ENTIRE season to do a total 180. I haven't even been bothered to review the episodes since the premiere because I've been behind but I'm so glad I caught up this weekend so I could watch yesterday; I would've hated to be spoiled for this.

That said, if my coworkers ask me why I'm so despondent this week, what do I say? "Oh don't mind, me, just a bit overly invested in a fictional narrative, lalala."

( What happened to you? --It won. )

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that time i watched Glee for the first time in forever

2011-03-09T16:39:58Z

wellll, by "watched" I mean "fast-forwarded through everything but Brittany/Santana and Burt", oh I do love that tumblr pre-screens shows and gifs the relevant bits for me so quickly.

( pretty cool that our girlfriends are such good friends, right? )

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fweeee

2011-03-01T17:23:54Z

FANDOM MARCH MADNESS. TWO WEEKS OF INSANITY. SILLINESS. OF PEOPLE BEING WRONG ON THE INTERNET.

I plan to stan/campaign for Gwen, Astrid (is Fringe getting a bracket idek), and Bonnie at first, mostly because I do not suspect any of them will make it past the prelims, so this'll be my only shot. Also you can generally expect to see me stanning the ladies and marginalized chars throughout 'cos that's how I roll.

Also, hellooo everybody. <3 Happy March! I'm gonna try to be around more!

+ TV:

- Excited about Game of Thrones. I'm 2/3 of the way through the first book now.
- Starz' Camelot: Tried it! loooooool... no. I'm sorry! I am sorry. But haha, no. ~*~say my name~*~~~~
- Being Human: currently three episodes behind. Not really in a rush to catch up.
- Vampire Diaries: Is on notice.
- Merlin: Filming in two weeks! I miss the kids, I really do. ♥

+ The Oscars were super-predictable. But David Fincher didn't win! *\o/* And James Franco is probably still high.

+ For the most part I missed the anon meme debate in Merlin fandom. Probably a good thing I missed it, from what I've been reading, but for the record you can count me in the "the meme is overwhelmingly and inexcusably gross, forever and ever amen" camp. I feel like once it becomes necessary to disclaim that "all you have to do is skim past the racism/sexism/personal attacks/appearance wank/bullying and it's an AWESOME PLACE", then it might be gross! I'm just saying, I'm just saying.

+ I did my taxes last week, and all looks good. I might have some extra cash to splurge on something. Think it might be an iPad. Tomorrow is the iPad 2 presentation so we'll see how many major changes there are. I always freak out about big purchases, particularly when they're things I don't... well, actually need. (~~Like an irl PADD for example~~.)

+ This post has no point whatsoever. But I got a lot of sleep last night, I actually have energy. Love you guys, back to work. ♥

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i dare you to do better

2011-02-02T20:37:11Z

Genderswapped Star Trek! I want the rest of this movie in my eyeballs.

(The embed's not showing up for me on DW (though it does show up on LJ) so here's a link if y'all can't see it.)

There's no reason why we shouldn't or couldn't have more of this for real.

(Also hi, hi, hi everyone <3)

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I need new Being Human icons.

2011-01-24T17:23:53Z

SO, that episode was definitely an improvement over ... well, most of last season! We'll see, we'll see.

( Being Human 3x01 )

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you know what's always sexy? fingerless gloves.

2011-01-21T15:55:41Z

MAN, YOU GUYS. I feel like I miss y'all all the time because I go through these periods without posting/commenting. The thing is, I'm in a phase where I have not been feeling like engaging with fandom lately beyond talking about stuff that barely anyone else is watching. :P I've also been spending a lot of time on tumblr. But neither of these things are valid reasons not to engage with my f-list! So I'm trying to get better at commenting and answering comments and stuffs. Basically I don't want to only show up around here when I get mad about something, hee. So anyway, some things:

+ Parks and Recreation is back and everything is beautiful and nothing hurts. I love everyone in that bar.
+ I watched Sanctuary over the holidays -- it's actually pretty good! The first season was hard for me to get into, but it found its stride in season 2.
+ Side-eyeing Chris Nolan for his choices re: The Dark Knight Rises. Love Tom Hardy, but he should not be playing Bane. Bane is not white. Love Anne Hathaway, but I wouldn't have thought of her for Selina Kyle, although that one's more of a wait-and-see for me.
+ Being Human is back on Sunday. BEING HUMAN IS BACK ON SUNDAY. I haven't watched the US version because I'm just not sure I can take the secondhand embarrassment at this stage, however, I DID watch the US Skins premiere. It's kind of terrible but I'll be honest, I'm probably going to keep watching because I'm interested in what they'll do with Tea.
+ I just finished reading the Chaos Walking trilogy by Patrick Ness. I couldn't help comparing it to The Hunger Games just because even though it doesn't have the same derivative Battle Royale ripoff premise, it does have some parallels about war and resistance and politics and stuff, and is also a YA post-apoc (sort of) trilogy of some notoriety. Except for me, Chaos Walking is SO MUCH BETTER. Mostly because Ness is a better storyteller than Collins IMO, and the characterizations were stronger, the plot felt much more cohesive. It's intense and heartbreaking and SOUL-DESTROYING but it's a good, quick read and I'd recommend it if you like YA stuff. Also: OTP of OTPs, feelings explosion, etc. Without getting all spoilery.
+ I just started reading Game of Thrones, because I'm more and more excited about HBO's adaptation of it that's coming in April. The trailers just look so amazing (Lena! Bean!), even though pseudo-European fantasy worlds are starting to bug me on principle. Anyway, I'm not far into the book yet, but it's good so far.

Brief assorted linkspam!
+ glass_icarus' Potluck blogging festival, for multicultural and intersectional discussions and writings about food.
+ According to my f-list I should read Pairing: Pendragon/Merlin. Everyone from every fandom is reccing this fic, haha. OKAY OKAY I WILL
+ Camelot Fleet Finishathon. Looks so amazing this year.
+ Really, really interesting and important discussion on "piracy" (specifically e-books for the most part), and the inherent privilege that goes along with defending Western Imperialist notions of intellectual property.

Finally, a meme, which you should all do, because I often feel like talking but don't know what to talk about! So, ask me anything you want to know!

Ask me a fandom-related question in the comments. This can be fandom specific, general, or about fandom/lj stuff/fic writing/etc. in general. Questions can be as wacky as you want. Ask me about tv shows, characters, fanfic in general, fandom issues/meta. Whatever you want.

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loving the bad things

2011-01-13T16:02:46Z

Right so, David Fincher. And how much of an asshole he is:

“I love Max Minghella. He came to us, uh, he obviously came to read for another part, and we had read enormous— probably a hundred— Indian actors who came in to read for Divya, and I saw footage of the actual Divya Narendra, who I’ve met now and he’s kind of like Warren Beatty. There’s nothing, aside from being incredibly tan, there’s almost nothing that seems particularly ethnic about him…. and we couldn’t find somebody who had that sort of smoothness. I looked, I looked, I looked. We went to London, we went to, I think, Paris, we went to Montreal. We cast from everywhere. And finally in the end I just felt that Max had the most, kind of… [trails off]. I just wanted to make sure that Divya was an equal. He was the most important third wheel in this triumvirate.”

That's from the DVD commentary for The Social Network. Fincher's talking about the fact he didn't cast an Indian actor for the RL person called Divya Narendra who is the American-born son of two doctors from India.

Do I even need to--

Divya Narendra is kind of like Warren Beatty who is white which means ...what, it's totally kewl not to bother casting an Indian actor because he doesn't seem to fit Mr. Fincher's idea of Indian dudes despite the fact that he is in fact Indian? And aside from minor details like his dark skin and visibly Indian features he doesn't seem "ethnic" to Mr. Fincher? And he couldn't find someone who had that "smoothness" that ...what, only white actors can bring to a role? And he wanted to make sure Divya was an "equal" because... what, he couldn't be unless he was white? WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU SAYING, MR. FINCHER. Especially considering you needed a crazy slutty Asian girlfriend and had no trouble finding Brenda Song for that.

Honestly this is just one line in a litany of things I hold against The Social Network and everything it chooses to be and no, TUMBLR, I didn't know about this until the commentary came out and that's why I didn't say anything before now SORRY I HADN'T REALISED THE STATUTE OF LIMITATIONS HAD RUN OUT. Fandom's (and it's not even any one fandom) defensiveness over this type of shit is tiring, tiring. I don't actually care how wonderful Andrew Garfield and Jesse Eisenberg and Trent Reznor and whoever cinematographer are, either. And I don't care that this is being marketed as the Movie Of Our Generation that I'll supposedly show to my kids so they can know that these unlikeable rich white dudes were the ones who shaped their world while everyone else was either missing or in the background. Naked.

Today rawles made the fantastic point that we need to stop calling these films good. Because they are not in fact good. And the idea that if people would just step back and be ~objective~ and focus on the most "important" things like acting or directing or anything but those subjective annoying social justice issues, they would accept that these films are still good is wrongheaded and insulting.

That doesn't mean that people aren't allowed to love bad things. I love bad things. It's nigh impossible not to love a bad thing and compartmentalize because so many, many things are bad and everyone's threshold for badness is different. The closest thing I have to a primary fandom right now is Merlin, for chrissakes, and people, MERLIN IS BAD. It does a few things that interest me and even make me happy, but that doesn't change the fact that it is a sexist, poorly written, BAD SHOW that I was basically Stockholm'd into by Angel Coulby. But I could make a list as long as my forearm of bad shows that I like.

It is all right to talk about these things. It's not wank to talk about these things. And no fandom, no fandom, is BETTER or safer for NOT talking or even arguing about these things.

UGH I don't know y'all. I'm just mad this morning. I'm going to try to make a post about things that make me happy later, and then I'm going to make things for halfamoon because that will make me happy. And idk, idk.

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sickened

2011-01-08T21:33:11Z

Here's Congresswoman Giffords talking about violent rhetoric and threats back in March:

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She is fighting for her life right now after someone shot her in the head today. At least five people have died, including a federal judge and a child.

Words matter.

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i really don't want no hassle

2010-12-27T16:10:16Z

+ My holiday was pretty great. Food and family and wine and meeting, then awkwardly holding, my 20-day-old niece. SO TINY AND SQUIRMY OMG. I love babies, especially if they're related to me, but I don't know if I have vast stores of maternal instinct, lol.

She's the cutest though. ♥ Hope everyone had a good holiday. Despite being on the East Coast the brunt of yesterday's storm missed me, but I hope everyone who got hit is home safe and warm or traveling safely. <3

+ I watched the DW Christmas special, which was ( spoilers )

+ Two movies I watched over the holidays: True Grit and Black Swan. Brief thoughts:

( Black Swan spoilers )

( True Grit spoilers )

+ Everyone's making end-of-year lists! I never have before, but if I find the time I kind of want to put together a 2010 music post of some sort. Or perhaps a post about the TV I loved. There was a lot of TV. More on this later.

+ And oh man, sometime soon I need to talk to you guys about kdramas. Tumblr has made me start watching You're Beautiful and Secret Garden and hommmmg. *____*

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